Trusting Illuminates… #Faith #2019Slogan #NewYear

This morning I watched the sun rise. It lit up the clouds with bold pinks, yellows, and oranges. It was so bright and beautiful but then almost as quickly as it illuminated the sky it disappeared leaving behind a sky of blue. I know the sun is still there. It is sitting behind the blanket of blue clouds. That knowledge of the sun’s existence comes from faith and reason, because even if I hadn’t seen the sunrise this morning I would know the sun is still there. I trust the sun is there.

2018 grew my faith deeper than I thought was possible. It was a difficult year without a doubt. There were great blessings in that year especially my job opportunity. With some time and new experiences, I expect that I will gain a deeper sense of gratitude among the pains it caused.

Growing isn’t easy, but it is worth it. I was incredibly aware how much of my life was operating by God’s grace last year. That was a valuable lesson. Walking into a classroom, driving down the road, and crawling into bed—time and time again I remember praying, “Jesus I don’t know how this is going to work, but I trust you.” He never let me down. He didn’t always work things out the way I expected but everything worked out. Even in the moments when everything was breaking and I was hurting so deeply, He was there. I clung to that knowledge in those moments.

Surviving a traumatic loss, while wicked and painful beyond belief taught me life does not come with guarantees aside from one exception. The exception? God. God is the guarantee whether you believe or not—He’s there. Whether you turn to him or not—He’s there. He’s always there with open arms of love and healing.

Knowing that releases the snares of control—the control of others, the control of the world, the control of darkness, and the control of our own sins.

For 2019 I had picked a word for the year, a word for contemplation and reflection. I’ve never done that before but I thought why not? My original word was ILLUMINATION but I’m changing that. Cause I’m a woman I can change my mind. 😉 My word for 2019 is TRUST.

Come to think of it, these two words seem to fit together well in this statement:

Trusting illuminates His will.

Right there is my slogan for 2019. My goal when the tides of life turn turbulent, when confusion tries to suffocate my hope, when the “sure things” fall through, I will remember this statement with a confident peace in my soul.

Trusting illuminates His will. I want God’s plan for my life even if that means my life looks absolutely nothing like I expected it to.

Happy New Year, friends! May you deepen and strengthen your trust in all your relationships, especially with the Author of our lives–Jesus.

Love, Hugs, & Sunshine,

Michelle

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Merry Christmas Eve #WeSeeGod #WeCelebrateHim

December has been a rough month for me, at least the first half of it was. Everything broke and when I say everything I mean everything. My truck broke down, my coffee maker broke, I had a terrible migraine that sent me to the ER, and then fuzzy brain for a week—the week before finals I might add which is the week I needed my brain to work the most. Somewhere as everything was breaking it was like my heart was breaking too. I felt lost and like I wasn’t doing the right things.

Everything was going wrong so I had to be doing something to cause it, right? Not necessarily. Sometimes things break. And in the brokenness I was boldly reminded that I am not in control. That recognition incites a momentary fear and anxiety and then I’m reminded to trust. I’m reminded that God loves me and I need to trust Him.

Even in my whining (and oh I did whine once I had enough energy to) I said, “I know God works best in the brokenness. I know that in my head I just can’t feel it in my heart right now. I’m hurting.” Somehow vocalizing that reminded me to trust and allowed me to move past the feelings.

This morning I sat with my cup of coffee in the quiet stillness of the morning. I haven’t done this in a while and I have forgotten how much I need it. I sat and watched the clouds out my window. I watched as a small circle of light burst through the gray clouds. Slowly but consistently the light continued to spread and I sat here with tears in my eyes. (This shouldn’t shock you. You know I’m a crier. LOL!) In watching the light break through the clouds I felt a comfort deep within my soul. A joy that two weeks ago I couldn’t fathom, slowly burst into my heart.

In the brokenness, God works. He works through all things but in those moments of despair He is most boldly visible to us. We can see His hands moving because ours have given up control and stopped trying to fix it ourselves.

So this morning, when I should be wrapping gifts I’m glad I sat in silence watching the clouds because I saw Jesus. I felt Jesus, and He is the reason we celebrate. He is love sent to heal the brokenness in each of our hearts. I’m so very grateful for that. And I’m also very thankful that my broken coffee pot has been replaced by TWO coffee makers. Double for my troubles. 😉

Nothing is broken beyond God’s repair. Never forget that.

Merry Christmas, friends! Remember to pause and thank God for suffering WITH you and suffering FOR you. Celebrate the birth of pure love into the world and share the gift of love that only you can give.

Love, Hugs, Sunshine, and Christmas Blessings,

Michelle

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